Hysterectomy Scheduling

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Tonight, I started to compose the message to my doctor. The subject line: “Hysterectomy Scheduling” I’ve composed a one-sentence message… …and can’t yet bring myself to click SEND. Tears are now streaming. I’m not scared of not being able to birth children. My worth as a woman isn’t defined by my womb. (And frankly, the idea of birthing children probably scares me more.) I’m simply tired of this fight already, and afraid of the unknowns of it…

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A vision of hope: “She will ROAR again”

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A lioness on an operating table. Her throat was mangled. Including -- or especially -- her vocal chords. 3 figures surrounded her: 2, 1 on each side, and 1 at the head of the table. They were tending to the gash, tenderly and meticulously mending the tears in her flesh. The room was full of light. It was separated and secluded... ...out of protection, not rejection. It only seemed like she was alone; they were all...
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Overwhelmed Tonight

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Can I be honest? I feel overwhelmed tonight. I’ve been dodging the waves all week, but tonight they’re washing over me. Crashing into me… …tossing me against the crags of worry, anxiety, disappointment, and heartbreak. And I’m too tired. I feel slightly feverish, definitely fatigued, and completely frustrated by all that it seems I can’t control right now. I’ve learned by now that grief is the tether to my Life Saver. To just let the tears…

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